Finally

So, I have decided that I cant sit here and wait around forever. I am giving up, and moving on. He is moving on so why shouldnt I? I do love him. Ridiculous amounts... but time is going to heal this one way or the other.

In the past TWO weeks I have made many friends, grown in my walk with God, and realized who I am as ME. I deserve someone who is going to love me without question. Someone who is going to be 150% honest with me NO MATTER WHAT. Someone who wont look at anyone else and question whether I'm good enough. B/C I AM GOOD ENOUGH. I AM.

I have also realized that he is NOT the only great guy left out there in the world. There have GOT to be more people. I do not PLAN to date or be in a serious relationship for a VERY long time. But I have learned that my plans dont always go according to plan so I'm letting God handle all of this from now on. No more plans. No time on when I have to get married... get a dog/cat, have kids, have a career, etc. NO MORE PLANNING bc in the end... I'm not even in control. My life has already been planned. I just have to live it one day at a time and see where I get.

This outlook feels 100 times better than the utter darkness and pit of depression I have been confined to for two long weeks. :)

Thank you God for answering prayers. :) :) :) :)

Jeremiah 29:11 "'For I know the plans I have for you' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'"