Matthew 6:34

A lot has happened in the past few months. About two months ago I moved to live with my mom in Swansboro, NC (which is ab 7 hrs away from Spartanburg). I had to leave my apartment,my boyfriend, my friends, my jobs, etc. Unfortunately I moved sooner than I wanted to, and I had no time to mentally/emotionally prepare myself for such a big change.

The past two months have been far from easy. I have struggled in more ways than one. It has been a crazy ride of feeling alone, sad, worried, having lack of trust, feeling like I'm losing things that are SUPER important to me, and other things. During this whole struggle I have had trouble reminding myself that I am NOT alone in this. That God is right here beside me every second of EVERY day. When I DO remind myself of this and crack open my Bible/Devotional book I can SEE God's love, mercy, friendship, guidance, power, strength, and everything else good pouring out over me.

I have been struggling soooo much in my relationship with my boyfriend. I have become SO wrapped up in the thought that he will be gone pretty much for the next TWO YEARS that I have scared myself into believing that he is not going to love me anymore, that things wont work out, and that he will change and leave me. And because I have started thinking all of these things I have tainted my relationship. I have driven not only myself but also my boyfriend nuts! THANKFULLY God blessed me with a patient, loving, understanding, strong, caring, and confident man. I have recently come to the realization that there is nothing I can do in this struggle other than rely on God. I have to TRUST God, because he is the only one who knows how this is going to turn out. I have had to remind and remind and remind myself that GOD is in control of this. He is in control of EVERY aspect of my life.

Matthew 6:34
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." <-- I've always felt that the verse BEFORE this one should have come AFTER it... so I'm just going to add it now. "But seek FIRST his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."

I was introduced to this verse, ironically, when I first met Ben. I was flipping through this Bible, trying to get a feel for his faith and his favorite verses and what not, and this verse was underlined and starred. This verse has been the one that has gotten me through a lot of this relationship. God has laid a perfectly planned out path before me. I look back and see so many ways that he prepared me for the journey I have been on with Ben. We have both taught each other/and learned so much from each other. For that, I am ETERNALLY greatful. Whether this journey is meant to be temporary or permanent, I am making a PROMISE to enjoy EVERY second of it.

My God is SO good, so amazing, so wonderful, merciful, kind, just, all knowing, etc and why in the WORLD would I choose to NOT trust him!!??!?!